Rambles

I miss you now

Very sudden this

I really don't understand why though

A sad song

This situation

How much longer must we wait

When will we be.

Rambles

I am a prisoner of war

My own prison

My own war

See now

How I do torture the prisoner

See now

How I do wage war

See now

How I cry in this cruel prison

See now

How I condemn that which condemned me

See now

As I laugh out in mockery of mankind even with a tear in my eye

Shed for the loss

Rambles

Growing distances

Even as they exist

I wonder what was said

What had been done

What did we share?

Or do we?

Did I lie too much?

And did you see through?

What did you want, I didn't learn

Tried too much becoming otherwise

Frustrated I did scream

Joy tore through and I showed me

Crazy revelation this

Happiness boundless

Love free, finally

Encompassing all

You too?

Rambles

When I did walk upon this world,

Naked, save for a smile weary and devoid of hope

Hither did I seek for substance unknown

I came across strange lands

Of palaces and people

Shunned by all

Wandering vagabond straying ever

Out in the open I did sleep

Awaiting the death of the sun

The moon mother alone understood

Respite from unjust purgatory she gave

I did smile

As I looked up in wonder

Flirting with her mischievous children

We did look upon each other

Unlearned, yet, I understood your silent affection.

Your favourite I did become

And love me dearly you did

Sent down your prettiest child for me

Wondrous form given

With stars in her eyes

And soul so tender

You did seek me out

In my wilderness

Covered me with silken gifts from your mother

Knew not whence thou came

Fear of the world

I reclined. Snarled

Unlearned, I knew not

Your gentle smile, easing

Rambles

I am burnt now

The ashes even are formed

I call then upon ye

O soul buried within

Rise from your death

Breath life now

Emerge to conquer

For your God does call

To forget yesterday

And seek revenge from tomorrow

Villainous tomorrow

Revel now in your awakening

Come

'Tis time to be born

Rambles

Rehearsals are the features of the great anti climax

Spontaneity reeks genius

Follow the heart

I am told

By who

The Great God

Does play games

Strange ones

Of defiance and challenges

Of greatness and denials

Wonder what He wants

Does He know what I do?

Afraid

Both

The Prophet who won't preach

Prophecies of wonder untold rot in the world's recesses

Seen a vision

Seen the Truth

Ambiguous nature

Speech fails

Lots to say

Don't know how

Can God help?

Or is He too afraid?

Ode to Joy

This is an ode to joy.

This is the glory of me

This, my friends, is the way it should be

Small wonder, the Moon is risen.

Washed with the soft waters of the fountain

Bubbling ever endlessly, there, upon the white monstrous mountain

Endless chatter, it seems

Strong words of philosophy

Meaningless, it all to me

But hey, can't you all see?

The little step over and the skips in twos

The big fat grin make my eyes so thin

Hey baby! I just kicked the blues!

Where the sleep now?

I await the dreams.

But this strange excitement

So pleasing

'Tis not me that does write

'Tis my soul in flight

Snap, snap, the shackles all snap

All restrain will soon snap

To purity, I do ted

Then misunderstood I shall be not

All the words, all the thoughts

Everything, that I ever sought

Would be known

Would be mine

Man. I just don't know what to say.

I'm feeling damn good, that's all!

Rambles

I was just wondering -
You know, how much longer must this last

It's getting boring, dragging on endlessly

Listless, without direction

Void of all. Love none

I feel naught

I feel much

On and off

In and out

Where art thou now?, boundless, miserable writer

Now, slowly, brighter things appear

There must be some reprieve after all.

I wonder if 'tis true this time

Is the strength real?

Shall it be that I fall again?

Who knows

Only time can tell

Time, my eternal companion

We must walk endlessly

Through it all, yet,

    Part of naught

Won't you teach me the ways of yours

So that I may learn my own inner being

I will follow you, I will

There won't be any more of this

Alone always, like you

Need no memories, keep all, I

Introduction of the Butterfly - Celebrations

A lone butterfly whistles through to the Heavens
Speeding ever, lest it miss the rare opening

Relief, I recieve, when it does leave behind its colours in the sky

Letting me know

So rich, so bright, dimming ever still,

Never seen before such, I

I retreat smiling

Happy and Content

Successful flight of my brave friend

I forget soon though

Absorbed and Occupied with the happenings that were

Selfishly returning to false comforts

I pain with guilt later

With the Moon so far, I puzzle at the brightness

Looking around, across the Night Sky

Everything so clear, the Heavens retreated into the distance

But I could see the celebrations

Guiding my path in the darkness, the joys of the butterfly

Driving away the pain, so awesome your joy

I promise never to forget

Let me celebrate too

I take your hand, and lay you down gently

Rest upon the soft, moist grass

And shut not your eyes

Love the Moon as she turns her attention towards us

Fluorescing the green we lay upon

So bright, we seem to rise, as we lay surrounded by a world so dark.

Moments pass many

The loving Moon slowly passes on, allowing us to be enshrouded by the miserable prison we just passed

Frightened, I hold you tight

Tearing your soul, I rush within

Escaping into the depths of you,

    I seek your protection

There in your inner self, I cry, crouched, eyes shut, shivering scared

I hear soft whispers

Calling out, soothing my disturbed mind

Slowly, I raise my head and look around at the wondrous haven of you

I rise, my legs finding renewed energy in the warmth you give

Spellbound, I follow the soft voices leading me to explore

Showing me all the Heavens of my Dreams and Life

Shamelessly, I draw all my strength from within you

Attempting to drain your endless reserves

Foolishly, I assume the return of my self

Unable to see that 'tis you that is me.

I march on till your soft voice brings me to the painful opening I did make in my weakness

Fearlessly, I enter the darkness as you give birth to me.

The hole in your soul leaving you defenseless against the Darkness

I must protect you

I carry you away, away from the Darkness, onwards towards the brighter lights, into one of my havens, safe.

I heal your wounds with the energy that you gave me

Whispering soft words to blow away the pain, into your moist ears, moistened by tender kisses and caresses of love, mine.

In this moment of one

Turned my bright false haven into a Heaven true

And as the openings around us slowly did close

Detracting away from the world and darkness

Our Celebrations began

And so bright and splendid were they, continuing forever

Remained in the skies, seen to all, till eternity

Thus, showed me the Butterfly, the way to Celebrate.

Rambles

I have strange magical forces. I can bring joy and life. I can show light. I can bring the waters.
I cannot fly.

Late Again

Now is now

Strange

Funny things happening

I write now

    only for the pen

The love that I know

I want to throw

Why?

I don't know.

You are so great

So above

Me

I am so low

Seeking help

from the world so strange

Music so beautiful I hear.

Why burst the bubble

    You did.

I don't want to know.

Go away. You're not the one.

I cannot help anymore

I've solved your world

Let you fly

    But remember, don't you forget,

    leave behind your chains with me

I may need them.

Why must it be such

I've tried so much

I stand now.

In the myriad maze of the long chains coming down from the sky above.

Slowly I walk across, testing them all.

No. You all won't be such forever.

I am coming.

I climb a chain. Becoming one with it. With you. The chain holding you.

Slowly, I recede, absorbing you with me, as I climb and depart.

You now, are part of me.

The only price I askk for this service.

Now I know you like the Lord dost.

Slash!

I cut the chains,

Fly. Free soul. Fly

I did set you free

I must go now.

Remember me not.

For I must release many more like you.

Liar liar. Am I.

I am not cheating I am not.

Understand me won't you?

The great Lord built me such.

I must do all this.

Be part of all.

    Then escape. Somehow. Someway

Stranded

I’m floating now,

The darkness softened by the distant light.

Looking around, I can’t find any reason.

My eyes slowly shut, resigning, again.

Welcoming the world of bright lights and colours

Emerging all from that little dark spot in the centre

Loud noises hurt

Disturbing my sanctuary

Careless, heedless, insensitive

Pain all around

But I forgive easily

And in this kind state of forgiveness, I welcome many.

But ‘tis sadder when the states diffuse

And they stand alone in my soft darkness,
stranded then.

Holding on easily till the bright light demands their return

Leaving me to stand alone in my soft darkness,
stranded now.

The Beginning (after the End)

I turn around, away from the wall

Beside me I see the closed door opening, even as I stare at it.

A sparkling white light emerges from within and focusses on me

Purifying the air, seemingly, as it does.

Paralysing the gaining hordes

They watch with fear and awe.

Searching for the bend, I had found the path

Walking in, I turn to take one last look at the dark hills.

Those that had once held me captive with boredom with the promise of sanctuary false.

The bright lights and rich colours revolve around me

Cleansing the dirt from my soul.

The soft pain telling me about the differences existing across the bridge I just crossed.

Bracing myself for the new, my pain dissipates and strength rekindles, as I find you

You smile so gently and take my hand.

I cry at the warmth of your touch and smile and hold you there, my hand in yours

You smile again and draw me closer

Holding me tight and near,
you take me into my new world.

There’s so much you must teach me

There’s so much you must show me

But, you fool, don’t you know?

     All I must know,

            All I must see,

                        Is you.

Dreaming

I listen intently,
tapped to the world around.

Slowly, something deep within stirs.

I smile sweetly, the Devil, knowing what is to come,

And yet, let it enfold me

Everything seems to be different now

The world, I cannot find

Oblivion is where I am

Still my presence is here

I see another day now.

Somewhere where I hope now will come to

There still, I travel back to that day that was.

I smile again

Attracting inquisition from the world around

I don’t care.

Let me continue dreaming

So exquisite this, it drowns the insensitive hysterics of theirs.

Sweet worlds flash past

Building glorified pictures of what has already

Diving things to come

Butterflies and birds dancing above calm waters that cool the sweet breeze gently kissing my joyous soul.

I grin uncontrolably at the dying sun, setting everything on fire as the skies slowly drown that great ember into the grateful waters, and pull over a veil of rich blue that seems to absorb me the more I stare at it

The stars, scattered endlessly across this deep blue blanket, heighten the enticement till I, in my exasperation, gasp for air

As my eyes survey from star to star, they fall upon the great sweet moon, looking at me, peeping through the clouds, as I look back at her.

I stand, thus, dumbfounded

Unable to move

My heart pulls, daunted by the beauty witnessed

A strange, almost sad feeling begins to grip me, and I find myself unable to react

I feel stuck

I feel a soft hand touch me lightly, assuringly

I turn to look, and I see your gentle smile, lifting me up and holding me warm instantly

Calm and warm, though, I suddenly am overwhelmed by some great pain.

Sensing this inexplicable restlessness, you hold me tight in the embrace of your arms

Finally the tears appear

The dams broken, I cry like a baby

I begin mumbling but you shush me, holding me still

You cry with me

Not for me alone, I soon realize, but the pain is within you too.

I look into your watery eyes, and deep down within I see that you need what I do.

No, I don’t need you, and you don’t need me. Not as much as we need us.

I kiss your tears and cradle you gentle to my breast.

Thus we lay, two happy souls, warm and secure in each other’s arms, watching many a beautiful day pass, but none to match the sight that we beheld when we looked into each other’s eyes

I wish this dream to come true

I wish it to never end

Thoughts

We started together,
part of the great cosmic beginning

How can we be defined?
Just thoughts.

Freely charging ourselves through the mighty vast expanses

Together we stayed, as one

Direct descendants of the Absolute, we were

Then, together again, we entered the long line.

Waiting for our Creation

Waiting for form.

So close to absolution, we already were,

We stirred the Devil in the Lord

With a wicked smile, he parted us

But didn’t define our destinies

He loved us, his own

Like serpents trying to mate in frozen ethereal clouds,

Our lives entwined, restless, desirous, hotly, for one another

Our forms oblivious to this cosmic direction chosen at a higher plane.

The pain, the agony, the unconquerable force.

The serpents stare deep down one another’s eyes,
momentarily pausing

The wicked Lord smiling
lovingly at His pets playing

Then, with one long look deep into each other

We find the pain tearing us inside

The hearts, burned, pushing their souls by some strange magical forces

The eyes, wretched and ghastly, for want of tears;
but serpents can’t cry

Then, with a great final lunge, and a big FUCK YOU! to he Lord,
the serpents mated, finally.

Searing the divine powers holding us back

We unite, completely, Absolutely!

Our forms, our souls, our thoughts, us.

And with that came the destruction of our shackles

Our thoughts, us, were free to roam once again

As I find myself rising, with you by my side

I see the serpents decaying,
becoming one with the cloud shackles

I see our forms burn and become part of another blessed form

I see our souls fall back into the great Absolute

And then I realize that I am nothing but a thought… of you!

Rambles

Strangers in the night

we were strangers in the night

Never met before

But now we see each other

Drawing closer by the moment

Who would have thought

That you and I would be

Strangers no more

Now something stirs

Deep down in me

Can’t suppress this urge

I think you should know

‘Cause we ain’t strangers no more

I think you should know

‘Coz you were the cause of this feeling in me

Don’t know how to say it

Maybe I should say it simply

Maybe I should work on it

Maybe Maybe Maybe

I love you.

Late

This feeling is so good

It’s semi charmed

Maybe I’ve been touched

God knows me I think.

Helps me all the time,

     and so much

But! I still keep doing the same thing

It’s so funny

I’m just writing now

You could call it blabbering,

but I need to blabber now.

These things are fooling me so much

You could help. Ha! Who am I talking to?

Yeah? I hear you.

Wait, let me open the door!

You think that was cool?

Wait till you see me!

Blankly I star.

Into this white paper.

With impressions of something else on it.

I

     I always.

Is it always I?

Or is it you?

What am I trying to get at.

I’m not defining anything,

So you don’t really want to read this.

I’m great

Can you feel what I’m saying? I can’t.

That’s why I’m writing it.

No fucking feeling. Ha!

Maybe be we all have to serve somebody.

That’s what the man said

But then the song will change

Then I won’t know what to believe

Should I believe the next song?

If I keep doing this, what am I believing?

Everything?

What’s wrong with that?

Don’t spite what you don’t understand.

Give people time.

Some of us are so lucky.

There is so much that we are

Let’s feel free and fly.

Let’s help all fly with us.

Don’t spite what you don’t understand.

Don’t spite me then,

     when I don’t want to fly anymore

Moods. That’s all that these things are. But when they switch so fast, it frightens you.

You don’t know where you stand.

When you believe in what.

You go around flying and freeing so many.
What’s left for you.

In the end you realize that you’re tired and not flying, but just watching everybody fly around you.

It isn’t fair, but that’s what you’ve been built for.

All this has been said, so often.

Don’t you know that life is so good?

I mean look at things around you.

All is so beautiful.

One day when you find the object of your desire, lust and strength, you’ll know what it is all about.

It’s a beautiful sun rising in the distance, over the sea.

The river flowing along the other side.

The morning sun streaming in, delivering the blessings of all the birds singing around me and you.

The glow of the soft white furniture.

The sheets that we lay in.

Burning, seemingly, as morning impresses itself on the new day.

Then, as the sheet comes off, our naked bodies embrace in an union that never will end.

We rise, from our embrace, only to look into our eyes, and then fall again into the depths of what we share.

This time, the union is more absolute.

Then we part, momentarily for we must. It is what is defined.

We continue through the morbid, monotonous definition everyday, only because we must

Then the evening comes, and we gaze, together again, upon the fire falling into the cool waters, sizzling our desires as it does.

We retreat into a seperate place then.

Known only to us.

So special that nothing can penetrate.

I hold you forever, then, in this special world

Life is so beautiful now.

We never can escape from this embrace locked.

Your flaws are none to me, and mine are none to you, for I am only to be for you, so the very hint of distaste would spark change and an enormous amount of affection towards you.

Hold me, every now and then is all I ask you.

I hope I’m not throwing everything away.

Birth of Shiva (or) The Final Solution

I walked, naked, along the desert

The mighty beginning burnt my poor mind

Hallucinating, I tripped along until I saw the paradise

I jumped in,

            but my mind had decieved me

I sizzled, bathing in the extremes of the fluid frozen poison and the burnt air

Blue, I jumped out, crumbling with pain

Some innate resistance fighting the fumigation of my brain.

But, the scars of purity permanenised

Light emerged from the pale marks inside

Inducted with madness, I danced relentlessly,

            catalysing Creation

My space filled out into titanic proportions

Killing the poor beast as it did

His hide marking that moment for eternity

His status raised in the New World – my tribute

I challenged then the Creator, with powers yet unimaginable

Compassion he did show, though out of fear, I believe

He showed me, and I realized what I was

Thus forged the Trinity

Then began the endless cycle of creation and destruction,

            entrees and departures

It was a game

            where we induced fear and foolishness into the New World

Our methods different, but the evil within had its way

Devotion of mine eccentric and dangerous ways

Perceived as neglect and disregard

Envy and Jealousy, thus we did create

Victims of which became the muses of our Creation

Clash, eventually, we did

And our destruction was complete and absolute,

            as once we were

But the world that we created remained.

Finally finding stability

For their belief in us never did subside

Blessed were they now, without our interference

The solution was found.

Reproduction, Babe!

I wanna write – a poem

            for someone who’s at home

For you babe

            I’ll travel all the way to Rome

I’ll ride on my bike

            made of leather and chrome

We’ll be wed

            in the Vatican dome

We’ll hump,

            like little green gnomes

So fast,

            that your cunt’ll foam

And we’ll make so many babies

And God will be so Happy!

The Devil's Proposition

Do you know the people around you?

Do you believe they are all true?

Don’t you just love me?

Remember, I set you free!

But you can’t come,

You have to rot in the slum.

It’s bound you so tight!

Loneliness would give you a fright!

Follow me!

I’ll show you another place,

Devoid of distaste.

Misery and sorrow,

Pushed to the far corners of tomorrow.

But if you ever turn back,

They’ll burn you on the rack!

Give me your soul,

I need to fill this hole.