Late

This feeling is so good

It’s semi charmed

Maybe I’ve been touched

God knows me I think.

Helps me all the time,

     and so much

But! I still keep doing the same thing

It’s so funny

I’m just writing now

You could call it blabbering,

but I need to blabber now.

These things are fooling me so much

You could help. Ha! Who am I talking to?

Yeah? I hear you.

Wait, let me open the door!

You think that was cool?

Wait till you see me!

Blankly I star.

Into this white paper.

With impressions of something else on it.

I

     I always.

Is it always I?

Or is it you?

What am I trying to get at.

I’m not defining anything,

So you don’t really want to read this.

I’m great

Can you feel what I’m saying? I can’t.

That’s why I’m writing it.

No fucking feeling. Ha!

Maybe be we all have to serve somebody.

That’s what the man said

But then the song will change

Then I won’t know what to believe

Should I believe the next song?

If I keep doing this, what am I believing?

Everything?

What’s wrong with that?

Don’t spite what you don’t understand.

Give people time.

Some of us are so lucky.

There is so much that we are

Let’s feel free and fly.

Let’s help all fly with us.

Don’t spite what you don’t understand.

Don’t spite me then,

     when I don’t want to fly anymore

Moods. That’s all that these things are. But when they switch so fast, it frightens you.

You don’t know where you stand.

When you believe in what.

You go around flying and freeing so many.
What’s left for you.

In the end you realize that you’re tired and not flying, but just watching everybody fly around you.

It isn’t fair, but that’s what you’ve been built for.

All this has been said, so often.

Don’t you know that life is so good?

I mean look at things around you.

All is so beautiful.

One day when you find the object of your desire, lust and strength, you’ll know what it is all about.

It’s a beautiful sun rising in the distance, over the sea.

The river flowing along the other side.

The morning sun streaming in, delivering the blessings of all the birds singing around me and you.

The glow of the soft white furniture.

The sheets that we lay in.

Burning, seemingly, as morning impresses itself on the new day.

Then, as the sheet comes off, our naked bodies embrace in an union that never will end.

We rise, from our embrace, only to look into our eyes, and then fall again into the depths of what we share.

This time, the union is more absolute.

Then we part, momentarily for we must. It is what is defined.

We continue through the morbid, monotonous definition everyday, only because we must

Then the evening comes, and we gaze, together again, upon the fire falling into the cool waters, sizzling our desires as it does.

We retreat into a seperate place then.

Known only to us.

So special that nothing can penetrate.

I hold you forever, then, in this special world

Life is so beautiful now.

We never can escape from this embrace locked.

Your flaws are none to me, and mine are none to you, for I am only to be for you, so the very hint of distaste would spark change and an enormous amount of affection towards you.

Hold me, every now and then is all I ask you.

I hope I’m not throwing everything away.