Rambles

I was just wondering -
You know, how much longer must this last

It's getting boring, dragging on endlessly

Listless, without direction

Void of all. Love none

I feel naught

I feel much

On and off

In and out

Where art thou now?, boundless, miserable writer

Now, slowly, brighter things appear

There must be some reprieve after all.

I wonder if 'tis true this time

Is the strength real?

Shall it be that I fall again?

Who knows

Only time can tell

Time, my eternal companion

We must walk endlessly

Through it all, yet,

    Part of naught

Won't you teach me the ways of yours

So that I may learn my own inner being

I will follow you, I will

There won't be any more of this

Alone always, like you

Need no memories, keep all, I

Introduction of the Butterfly - Celebrations

A lone butterfly whistles through to the Heavens
Speeding ever, lest it miss the rare opening

Relief, I recieve, when it does leave behind its colours in the sky

Letting me know

So rich, so bright, dimming ever still,

Never seen before such, I

I retreat smiling

Happy and Content

Successful flight of my brave friend

I forget soon though

Absorbed and Occupied with the happenings that were

Selfishly returning to false comforts

I pain with guilt later

With the Moon so far, I puzzle at the brightness

Looking around, across the Night Sky

Everything so clear, the Heavens retreated into the distance

But I could see the celebrations

Guiding my path in the darkness, the joys of the butterfly

Driving away the pain, so awesome your joy

I promise never to forget

Let me celebrate too

I take your hand, and lay you down gently

Rest upon the soft, moist grass

And shut not your eyes

Love the Moon as she turns her attention towards us

Fluorescing the green we lay upon

So bright, we seem to rise, as we lay surrounded by a world so dark.

Moments pass many

The loving Moon slowly passes on, allowing us to be enshrouded by the miserable prison we just passed

Frightened, I hold you tight

Tearing your soul, I rush within

Escaping into the depths of you,

    I seek your protection

There in your inner self, I cry, crouched, eyes shut, shivering scared

I hear soft whispers

Calling out, soothing my disturbed mind

Slowly, I raise my head and look around at the wondrous haven of you

I rise, my legs finding renewed energy in the warmth you give

Spellbound, I follow the soft voices leading me to explore

Showing me all the Heavens of my Dreams and Life

Shamelessly, I draw all my strength from within you

Attempting to drain your endless reserves

Foolishly, I assume the return of my self

Unable to see that 'tis you that is me.

I march on till your soft voice brings me to the painful opening I did make in my weakness

Fearlessly, I enter the darkness as you give birth to me.

The hole in your soul leaving you defenseless against the Darkness

I must protect you

I carry you away, away from the Darkness, onwards towards the brighter lights, into one of my havens, safe.

I heal your wounds with the energy that you gave me

Whispering soft words to blow away the pain, into your moist ears, moistened by tender kisses and caresses of love, mine.

In this moment of one

Turned my bright false haven into a Heaven true

And as the openings around us slowly did close

Detracting away from the world and darkness

Our Celebrations began

And so bright and splendid were they, continuing forever

Remained in the skies, seen to all, till eternity

Thus, showed me the Butterfly, the way to Celebrate.